you're beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me.

it's like smoking crack and trying to go to sleep.
it's like diving into the depths of an ocean without an oxygen mask on.
it's like climbing the side of a building and stopping to take a look down.
i'm restless, i can't sleep, i can't eat, i can't breathe.
i'm drained but i'm drowning.
i'm exhausted.
&tired of trying to please you.
I know where we're headed, &i'm more afraid than ever before.