5.26.2010

i want someone to need me, that so bad?

you build me up.
i breath sweet oxygen into my lungs, a little too fast, a little too much.
the heat of the room grows and small beads of sweat collect in the center of my palms.
my heart beats fast, a little too fast for my liking.
it frightens the butterflies that occupy my stomach, causing them to fly around viciously.
the greatest high i've ever felt.
the most addictive scent i've ever smelt.
all so fast it raises me up,  i'm in heaven.
paradise, if you will.
but then at the same time, it can all go away.
just as fast.
and you're left, with the reality,
that there's nothing left that's better than what you had.