i'm not drunk enough .

Talking about things like this get me thinking .
Why am I still sitting here on my lazy ass.
Why don't I have the courage to stand up and tell everyone what I'm really thinking .
Why am I not good enough .
Why am I such a bad person sometimes .
Why do I set such high expectations .
Why do things always have to be perfect for me, always.
What is perfect , anyways .
Where am I going.
What am I doing .
Do you really .

where'd my armor go ?
I lost my protection .
I'm not as strong as I thought.

just gotta keep going, i guess .
there's nothing that can be done .
noone can help me but me.
so, why bother ?
I can't go back and I never will .
I guess I'll just deal with it.

as they say, you live and you learn , right ?