goodbye.

Everytime I see you,

you look at me as if you want something more,

like you're seeking some sort of a reaction.

The honest truth -- I don't give a shit.

You did exactly what I wanted you to do,

I wanted you to prove all of my friends right so I could go back to be loyal to them,

I wanted you to fuck up and that's exactly what you did.

so thanks, for making what I wanted to do so much easier.

we both know I'm no good at hurting people.

I'm not gonna beg for your attention the way you want me to.

I'm not gonna run after you, I'm not gonna text you every five minutes, I'm not gonna look in your direction.

Cause for once you made me happy.

I wonder if he even kissed me goodbye,no I don't on second thought, I just fuckin' wished he would die.

What's with my addiction to things I can't have ?

I keep reaching for things that I can't have or shouldn't want.

Thinking they'll make things better but they just keep making things worse.

and the truth comes out..

most girls my age are attaching themselves to anything and everything they can.
me, not so much.
when you're living in a world where the clock moves at 100 miles per hour
and everything can change drastically in a matter of seconds
I'm walking on a tipe rope
and it's all i can do
not to hold on.

where does my time go ?

lately panic attacks come daily,
today's no exception.

my current panic attack -- why I'm the only one panicking about all of this.

They say oppostie's atract but I'm not too sure about that.

I can tell you think you know who I am,
you look through me like you know me inside and out.
But do you really ?
I haven't said half there is to say
so please, before you go
and make your assumptions.
listen.

We're ready, you know it too.
the world isn't waiting on us anymore
it's us waiting on them.
and I can't wait for the fun to begin. (:

I can smell the fear in your breath
and I can see it in your eyes.
You've got too much talent to be hiding behind these lies.
do remember growing up and wishing you were a princess in a faraway land?
do you still dream?
or did you lose your dreams along with the memories from last night?
what are you afraid of?
-"Oh, sweetheart put the bottle down. You've got too much talent."

Before you go, I just wanna say;
I'm sorry, for everything I ever did that was wrong,
like the time I ran away to the park, or the time I didn't come home from school,
having to get picked up from the principals office and wanting to break every rule.
I know I've said some pretty hurtful things that we both know I didn't mean.
and I've caused only the most embarrassing of scenes.
It's hard, to go through this right now.
cause I can't imagine how life would be without you.
I know you're going to send me away, don't feel bad.
you're right it is best for me.
I can't guarantee I will but I can promise I'll try my hardest to make you proud.
I'm scared that when I say thank you I might have to thank the sky.
I love you all the numbers.

QUOTES;

All I'm asking is don't make promises you can't keep,
and don't say things you don't mean because in the end,
those things mean everything.

girl: rumor has it, you like me.
boy: no, truth has it i love you.

wouldn't it be ironic,
if at this moment you were thinking of me
as i was thinking of you?