6.08.2010

you're useless.

I'd like to, for two seconds, remember how it feels to not be so wrapped up in someone else.
I'd like to remember what it's like to show up to school and think about my work, i'd like to remember seeing the clock at 11:11 and wishing for things like good weather the next day, i'd like to remember how it feels to make someone wait on my text, I'd like to remember seeing a stranger and wondering if they'd ever mean something to me, i'd like to remember not being completely dependent on what someone else was doing or how someone else was feeling, i'd like to remember not sitting up at night like an overwhelmed little girl and crying about stupid things an ignorant little boy may or may not have done, i'd like to remember being okay with being alone, i'd like to remember being happy with nothing but me, myself and i.