Eremophobia .

I can't help the fact , i'm scared of being lonely .
It's not that i'm unhappy with where i am or what i have.
Just that i'm so happy.

and i know , that things aren't going to stay this way forever .
i know that someday soon, i'll be lonely again .
I can't prevent that from happening .
but i can try .
so i do ,
you're all here.
so that, when the day comes that i find myself lonely again
i'll have something to fall back on .


but don't think that once i find happiness again and i'm no longer lonely
i'm going to just throw you away .
Because i do this all the time,
everytime.
I need you ,
to save me, when i'm drowning.