stay.

I wish you could stay with me forever.

Why? Because I know I'm not the best.

And I'm sure that, if you don't know by now, you'll soon find out.

I'm no better than your last, and I'm sure I'm not as great as your next will be.

But if you never left me , maybe you wouldn't have time to come to that realization.

I wish you would see everything perfect in me and nothing but faults in everything else.

just friends.

Sometimes when people ask, I wish I could say that we were just friends.

Not because that's what I want, we both know it's not.

But because, if we were just friends I would never be let down. There would be no expectations.

You could do whatever you wanted, I could do the same.

maybe if we were just friends I wouldn't be so fucking dependent on you.

And because, if we were just friends I'd have nothing to lose.

You terrify me. Why?

it's simple. Because, when I was sure I was unbreakable, you broke me.

Because, when I didn't want anyone you made me want you.

Because, when noone could control me you brought me back down to earth.

Because, when I didn't need anyone, you made me need again.

Because, when I was used to being chased, you made me chase you.

Because, when I could have anyone else at my fingertips, you weren't there.
Because, when I felt like giving up, you turned things around.
Because, I've never put as much effort into something as I am now.
Because, when I feel like dirt, you make me feel beautiful.
Because, you know everything there is to know.
Because, when you're gone for a day I miss you more than I miss the people I haven't seen in months.
Because, I've never felt so dependent on another person before.
Because, I know that while it's not hard for you to walk away, it's impossible for me to watch you walk away
and that terrifies me more than anything.